Summary: After 1 year, 4 months, 3 weeks, and 6 days of not seeing each other, Yunho and Byul met up once again. Will they be able to find the answer to their lives this time around?
The Answer to Our Life
It's up to you and me to fix our destiny. The jury's here so let's take the stand.
And we're not gonna take anymore. Can we try to erase all the pain?
So, please show me a reason. Give me a sign. Tell me the way we fall out of line.
Is it today? Or is it tonight? We'll find-- the answer to our life.
27th of April 2003, 4:42 pm, Lifetime Café
I’ve been staring at space for the last 32 minutes. It might seem as though I have nothing in mind, but my thoughts are actually confined to one man in particular; the man who was destined to be my husband but broke my heart.
I met him 21 years and 3 months ago in the hospital where I was born. He said he was watching me sleeping in my crib from the nursery window; he was 4 years old then. I practically grew up with him by my side; it had been different from that day we first met though. Because after I learned about the existence of the word love and what it means, I have been the one watching him.
“Byul! Sorry I’m late.” His voice broke me out of my musings. I turned to my left and saw the smiling face I missed so much.
“Yunho.” I smiled back. “It’s fine. I just arrived less than a minute ago actually.”
Liar. I mocked myself. Here I go again lying to keep my pride.
Well, I’ve actually been waiting for more or less an hour. Too excited? Not really. I was more of too nervous than that. I wanted to compose myself before he comes.
“It’s been…” I pretended to count in my mind; though I knew very well of how long it has been since I last saw him. Since that day, we last met up right before I left for Japan. I was intending to say a proper goodbye, but the words never came out of my mouth. So I simply left with him not knowing anything.
“1 year, 4 months, 3 weeks, and 6 days” He finished for me. I was surprised to know he has been specifically and accurately counting too.
“You haven’t been counting, huh?”
“Not really.” He shrugged.
Silence f ollowed. I don’t know what appropriate reply I could say to that.
“God! I missed you Byul! How’s my little agiya?” He asked after a while, smiling.
“I’ve been doin’ good Yunho-sunbae. You?” I saw the smile adorning his face falter, or did it really? If it did then he was quick to rebound because that bashful smile is back on again. Was it because he was expecting me to call him “Yunnie” just like I used to before? Or maybe “oppa”? I don’t know.
“Happier than I could ever be for sometime. Just that I’m so happy to see you again Byul. It’s been so long. And you know, it’s different without you around.”
“Yeah. I was sincere in saying that. Really Byul…”
A puff. A pause. A sigh. We’re both stalling…
“So? You knew the big news already?” He started.
Time to face the music. Right, we didn’t meet up to catch up with each other. We had to talk about something we should have been made aware of from the very start. Well, I was. I overheard my parents talking about it when I was nine years old. As for Yunho, I don’t know if he knew before their announcement. But I’m wishing he didn’t; because it would break my heart more.
“Uhuh. We’re getting married in 3 months time. Wow! I was totally surprised.”
“What do you wanna do about it?” He asked seriously, looking at me intently. Seems like he chose to ignore my sarcasm.
“Well…what do you intend we do about it?” I looked at him without evading his eyes. I wanted to know his decision even before the words comes out of his lips, so I could prepare myself and not show a single sign of vulnerability.
“Are you seeing someone right now?” He asked. I didn’t expect him to ask such a question. I thought he’d just tell me what his plans about all this are, and we’d both work together to end this madness. He has changed. The Yunho from before would just direct me through everything without asking for my opinion, too sure I’d simply follow him obediently.
“…” I didn’t know what to say. Should I be honest and tell him that my heart was just too stubborn to pick someone new? Or should I say I am and that I think that person is the one, just to see how he would react?
“Like seriously? Did you have your heart left in Nihon?” He followed up.
“Then let’s give this a shot.” He took my small cold hands in his big warm ones. I was surprised. Though I’ve thought of this possibility I wasn’t thinking it was really that highly possible. I thought he didn’t want to marry this way. That he would only marry because of love and not any other reason.
“Let’s give it a try Byul. We were good. It’s just that it seems like something happened along the way and we drifted apart. Well, more like you moved away from me–not only physically at that. I mean if we could bring things back to how they were before, erase all the pains somehow, and do our share…we can make this work.” He took a breath. “So? What do you say?” He continued.
I pretended to think about his question seriously, even acting it out by massaging my temples. I’ve already decided on what my stand would be even before coming here, formulating different responses to every possible solution he’ll come up with for I was sure, he already came up with a decision even before giving me that call to talk about this. So, even if his pronouncement surprised me, it didn’t confuse me.
“Un.” I nodded. “Alright Yunnie-oppa.” I bit my lips smiling after I did so. I figured I should start calling him with the nickname I gave him when we were younger. Afterall, we are planning to make this work out between us. Also, he looked delighted with me calling him that again. “However, I couldn’t really explain about that something yet. But I’m willing to give this a try too. We have the rest of our life to talk about the things that has happened along the way. Please be patient, and wait for the day I am ready to tell you everything. ”
“Araso. I’ll wait for that day then. Patiently. Let’s begin finding the answer to our Life, uri Byul-i…”
A peck on the forehead.
A tight hug.
A genuine smile.
A smack on the lips.
And our life of being together again has begun.
I do hope we find the Answer to our Life oppa. I responded in thought. And I hope it’ll be a positive one.
I want you to heal my wounded heart and place back the broken pieces. Nobody else can make it possible except you. That much I know.
I wanna tell you those words out loud soon. Not as a little sister to her older brother, nor as a junior to her senior, but as a wife to her husband.
Let that be your reply when the time comes too oppa, and I’ll be the happiest girl in the world.
You have always been the Answer to my Life. I wanna be the answer to yours.
A/N: My first ever fic! Manse!!!
I was planning to make this into a chaptered fic.
But I am not confident if I’d be able to do so.
That’s why I ended up making it into a one-shot.